Thursday, September 03, 2009

When It's All Over and Done

It's a very common feeling. We get it after returning from a vacation. We get it after finishing a piece of writing. And you'd better believe we get it after a show comes down.

That kind of "eh" feeling. That "what now" feeling.

And kids, I've got it.

It doesn't help too that I've been away from the city for a month. Returning home after being away is a surreal experience. I used to feel it most acutely when I was living in England and I'd come back home to Toronto every six months or so for a visit. You feel like you've never been away. And yet you feel like everything is different. You see things with slightly different eyes, and yet so easily fall back into the same old routine.

I knew this week would be tough. I'd arranged plans with so many friends so that I would remember the awesome part of being back (you know, the whole seeing everyone again). Heck I got to go for drinks with Bruce Campbell after Fan Expo on Saturday. That's pretty cool.

But I still feel . . . "eh". I still feel "what now". I feel the old patterns starting up, the ones I was so happy to leave behind at the end of July.

Anyway. I'm not trying to vent, or asking for sympathy. Merely trying to, in my own special way, express what I'm going through in the hope that some people might relate. And get that we all go through this sometimes.

This too shall pass. And hopefully when it does, I'll be a little wiser, my patterns will be a little different, and I'll be a little happier.

But right now?



Anonymous said...

I know what you mean. Particularly in theatre where a show can really become a family. It is always hard to say goodbye and move onto better things. I always just think about how much I take away from that experience and how well that new knowledge will serve me in the next.

Anonymous said...

I did amateur theatre for a long time, and got the same feeling there, too.

Weeks of life being a frantic dash between work, theatre for rehearsals/show, bed, not enough sleep, junk food, forgetting what one's home looks like.

Then suddenly it's all over, and you have all this time on your hands. And even though you should be enjoying the extra time, you find you don't know what to do with yourself.

TerryLynnJohnson said...

Hello fellow MG writer. Dropped by for visit from AW. Just think - next vacation is only a few months away!

Gypsy K said...

I can't relate to the theatre experience but I hope you got lots of great pics and something to cheer you up! Coffee perhaps? Marshmallows straight from the bag?!